Fraz's Blog

How am I a threat?

Sun, 24 Jan 2010 02:10:00 +0000

On more occasions than once has this happened, more than once being twice, but regardless. I’ll just also point out the fact that I have few friends, but those who are friends are close ones. So when I’m asked not to talk/see them again, it bothers me some what. I find the idea of aski-.. scratch that, telling your other half that there is someone they’re not allowed to speak to or see again, is absolutely ridiculous. I personally have never and would never ask, nor tell someone they can or cannot see someone.

So yeah, while logging in and such thinking I had a lot to say, its kinda all gone now. But basically, month or two ago I lost a close friend because apparently her boyfriend is uncomfortable with the idea of Me and her hanging out.. I can’t see how that’s not really offensive to the girl, because you’re basically, in short, saying you don’t trust them.. and a more recent, as in today, occurrence was a very very close friend, who I’ve known for.. 3-4 years now?.. her boyfriend says I’m a prick and etc because I comment on some minuscule things on her facebook, saying I’m always flirting with her n’ shit… but meh, I’m gonna stop ranting.. first blog post in, however long and its laamme. Might get back into blogging…

.. but I doubt it.

tl;dr?.. Moral of the story, Boyfriends or Girlfriends who stop their other halves from seeing friends, guys, grow some balls, girls, grow some metaphoric ones.

Edit in: Forgot to mention that if you are ever in this situation, which ever side, remember that depending on your decision, shows how much of a friend the person really is.

and on a positive edit not, what the hell happened to Bro’s before Ho’s? ;P

Awesome..

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 22:18:34 +0100

.. I feel so wanted.

True story.

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 00:28:35 +0100

I walked up to this counter today right, going to buy some batteries for my MP3, so I walk up and the person behind the counter is this blonde girl, probably 17/19, pretty hot basically.. she’s smiling at me as I walk up to the counter, and seems genuinly smilier than she would need to be.. at the time I wasn’t actually wearing any shoes, so she askes in a friendly way “Whats with the no shoes?”.. now this being a good time to think of a good chat up line or something, try get a little conversation going perhaps, the last thing you’d want to do at this stage is make yourself look stupid. So, being the smooth talker I am, I told her “I’ve been hiking the last 4 days, and well my feet have now swelled up”….

…the conversation abruptly ended and I was on my way out of the store with my batteries, laughing at my own misfortune.

Sttuuufffs

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 14:23:00 +0100

Well, I haven’t updated my blog in around 3 months, ish, I think. Anyway, so in that time, I’ll try remember what I’ve done..

Attendance at college dropped loootts, I didn’t go in for like 3 weeks.. however, I officially finished college a couple weeks ago and I actually finished all my work and handed it in a couple days ago. So college is over for now for me. ^_^

I gave blood (Y).. something I plan on doing every 12 weeks or 16 weeks or whatever it is that I can do it again. So that was pretty cool.. I found out my blood type is A+, 35% of the population have it and so if I ever need it I’m safer than the 1% of the population who has AB-.

Driving lessons and the such are coming along weellll. Should be booking my theory for when I get back from holiday, hopefully. I can’t wait to be driving :3..

Hoolliiday.. going to Portugal with just my parents this summer for 2 weeks.. should be awesome.. I’m gonna try and do loads of exercise n’ shiz while getting a tan :P.. should be a cool holiday in theory.

I’m feeling alone recently :(.. its been near 2 years since I had a lasting relationship, I don’t really know what to do about it, or what I could do. I just suppose when the times comes it comes, or whatever ¬__¬

I’ve been doing my 3D stuff recently which is awesome ^_^.. trying to get better at it all n’ shiz and like the style I’ve got atm.. might do another one today. :)

eerr.. yeah. I think that’s all.. this was just a release of information that you might be reading, most likely the most boring blog I’ve done, but it was more for me wasting time and telling it to myself, or whatever. (A) lol… it’ll be a month before I update again I’d imagine. >_

Are your parents proud of you?

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 23:48:44 +0100

The question crossed my mind the other day.. How did your parents wish you’d grown up?

Did your dad want you to be on the football team or did he want you skate?.. your mum, did she want you to play a musical instrument or play sports?

I mean of course our parents, or I’d hope, are proud and happy of us all with whatever we choose to do. But if you think what they thought when we were first born, do you think they might be disappointed that we may not have turned out how they had hoped.

Are they happy with how you look?.. I know that some parents are quiet forward in letting some of their children know, which is, in my opinion, stupid. But if some of our parents, do you think they’re dissaproving with how we dress/look, and just don’t want to point it out due to awkwardness?.. I personally don’t think my mum likes the fact I have long hair, and some of the way I dress. She comments on how I look scruffy, and always comments on that I need my hair cut, and that I should shave.

I think without even meaning to we do end up in more or less a way like our parents want. If you think to yourself now, how would you want a child of yours to end up, you’d probably think of a younger version of yourself?.. or at least I would. From the influences from our parents we probably have ended up like a younger version of them. But with the Culture of the world changing, I feel some parents find it harder to deal with the changes than others.

I’d ask my parents if they were proud of me, but it seems like an awkward question to ask.

Any of you know, or willing to ask your parents?

Copyrightⓒ

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 20:18:29 +0100

Copyright is the thing that protects us from others stealing our ideas, and etc etc. I’m sure we all get what it does to a basic understanding.

The way I see it, is that a product or idea can have a Copyright so that it is protected from others of stealing it, using it for their own profit, and exploiting it as their own.

Now, for my college project at the moment our task it to create a music video. We choose the song and we choose how we want our music video to look. Any style of video and anything we want basically. My idea is to create a Typography animation of the song Wild Wild West by Will Smith. I’ve been working on it for a couple weeks now, had around 45 seconds a few days ago and thought to upload it to facebook to show friends and family a preview of what I’ve done so far.

A few days later after uploading it and receiving a few comments, I log on to find that it has been deleted and removed from my videos due to copyright infringement?!..

Now I can understand a tiny bit why they took it down, because of the fact I clearly didn’t created the song itself. HOWEVER, I also CLEARLY stated I did not create the song itself and only the video, and I gain NO profit from uploading the video so that just my friends can see. They’re just trying to be bloody awkward, because there is no reason why it shouldn’t be allowed up.

twwaaatts.

>:(

Guitar hero WIN!

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 00:34:34 +0100

Wooop. There was a competition in town at HMV for the highest score on GH3. Winner got £20 HMV, and I got the two highest scores after a day of people trying for the best score. :D

It just shows those who said what a waste of time it was me playing it. And also, those who I think I play it all the time I actually rarely ever play it. Only times I DO play it are when others are round and want to play

Shame I can’t make a living out of it. :P

On another note; it’s my birthday tomorrow :).. Driving n’ shiz.. and cloths. +++ Hugs :D

Wales

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:59:48 +0000

Weekend just gone I went to wales for a practise practise of my DOE walk. We only did one day of walking, which was roughly 15km long, but it was over roughly 5 mountains, one of which was the heighest mountain in the southern UK.

The weather was surprisingly decent for wales, except for the wild camp we did friday night, which I got wet in the tent because I didn’t have a mat :(, so I ended up being really cold and sogey, which was horrible.

The walk itself was actually amazing, the first hill that we climbed was the hardest for me, and for most others I talked to. Whether or not that was because it was just after we woke up, and we were cold, or whether it actually was diffecult, who knows. We then walked along the top of the mountains, which was really nice because it was all flat, and really interesting with all the wind, and accasional small waterfall/streams..

The mountains (climbing up wise) were really diffecult for me, and my legs were burning so much, but I always had a smile on my face. It’s made me think of how much I need to improve if I’m to get through another 3-5 days of walking mountains and such, so I’ve started running (and I’m ACTUALLY doing it this time, went running yesterday) and I’m gonna be going to the GYM once or twice a week. Should sort it out.

anyway so yeah, after we finished the mountain walk, we all went back to the place we were staying at for the night to come. We relaxed for a couple hours, and then went out for a night nav, the route was roughly 2-3km I think, not sure. It took us 01:30 - 2 hours to complete in the dark, then in the morning the next day we were told to do it again. The sun was up and we all felt like doing it quickly, so we all ran it, and in the spirit of the sun did it topless ;P, completed it in 25 minutes, which was pretty awesome.

that’s all :D.. kinda a boring update, but ah well. Will update with something exciting when something exciting happens.

P.S; New background

P.S.S; Working on an awesome music project for college.

2009 - Happenings and My plan for a new me.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 06:28:00 +0000

Hello few people of which read my blog :D

Haven’t updated in over a month and such, it’s around 6 in the morning, my eyes refuse to let me sleep and so I’m stuck with an urge to do something active. Writing this blog entry is far from active, but its something to get me started on whether or not I should bother not sleeping or not.

Last night; or more this morning, I didn’t sleep at all, got home at around 10, and then slept until 7 in the afternoon, so I’ve been awake for less than 12 hours, making it impossible for me to sleep.

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It relation to my previous blog entry(s?) about my fitness, I haven’t done anything about it. Which is only my fault of course, because its me who wants to change and its only me who can actually do it, but I just really can’t get into doing it. If I’m still wide awake after this blog entry I’m going to go for a run and do some martial arts practise or something in a field (It sounds both healthy and awesomely cool at the same time.) All I’ve done is as many crunches as I can before it feels like my stomach will rip, every other night at the most. I can slightly see a change, but its not enough to what I want, so I’m gonna keep at it. I’ve also been playing drums a lot more recently, I found a few Foo Fighters songs that really get my arms straining when I play them with more fills and high-hats than they’re meant to, but its a pretty decent work out.

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I’ve probably mentioned at some point in a blog post that I’m useless with girls and that I always mess things up with them. It probably still is pretty much true with most girls really, but there is one girl that I really like, the only trouble is I like her more than she likes me. I blew my chance like a year ago when she really liked me and I was stupid enough to let the chance go. But I’m really trying to prove to her that it’d be worth being with me, and whether it’s a pointless task or not, I don’t mind, because I’m just really happy whenever I’m with/talking to her anyway.

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College for me started off really well. There are some really awesome people there, the subject is, as always, really interesting to me, and the teacher is really understanding of whatever concerns you may have regarding project deadlines, absences and etc. HOWEVER, I’ve fallen into my usual routine of leaving stuff till the last minute and I keep on falling behind with due dates and I’m starting to struggle with the subjects at hand.

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Social problems? I think that I need to some how accept that fact that I need to socialise more or something. I dunno what it is with me but I just prefer being alone to going out and hanging out with people. I used to use the excuse that people would probably just being getting drunk, smoking and doing drugs, which is why I didn’t want to go. But I don’t think that was actually the case, because a year or two later I’m still avoiding things and turning down opportunities just so I can stay home and do nothing. I don’t even understand what I do all day, the time just seems to go by and nothing is ever archived. I dunno if its some how a serious problem or not, I don’t really see how it could be, but its sorta worrying.

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Random points:

-I bought a bottle of Irn Bru the other day and its now my favorite drink, :P.

-I’ve been watching a few movies recently and some really good movies I’d suggest anyone to watch are Accepted, Thick as Thieves and Burn after reading. All really awesome films in their own genres.

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If I won a lone hundred million pounds. For a few months I’ve always been thinking, what would I do if I won 100,000,000 pounds?.. these are the things that cross my mind.

Give money to;

£100,000(each) to each close relative of mine, which would equal a total of 2.2 million.

£100,000(each) to the following friends; Andrew, Tim, Caitlin, Sam, Jason, Shaun, Alex, Amy and Hannah, totalling £900,000. I would then also buy those people one thing of their choice. (within a limit, but the limit would be pretty damn high anyway lol)

£500,000(each) to my brother, sister, mum and dad. Totalling £2,000,000.

After that, I’d have roughly 95 million left. I would then buy the following;

- Eleanor; google image it, you’ll see what an awesome car it is.

- I’d buy a house in Southwater somewhere.

- I’d buy (if they’re still selling) my grand parents villa off them, so that both I can call it my own, and so that they can then move back to the UK if they want to, or continue living there without the worry of costs.

- Completely awesome out my house with really cool looking stuff and etc XD

- Looaads of new cloths and such.

- A motor bike or two.

after doing that, I’d take my family and a few of my friends on a holiday to somewhere amazing.

and I think that’s it.. ;P

I mean of course that will probably (but hopefully? :3) never happen, but it helps me sleep at night XD..

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This blog post went from being quite serious to pointless and random. >_<.. oops.

If you actually read all of this, I congratulate you. This was more of a personal release of thoughts and that, but I figured that I may as well post it into an update on my blog. And there you go.

I’m feeling kinda hungry and slightly tired now, so I may try go to sleep, though I doubt it’ll work. It’s probably just the screen making me tired.

Good night/morning!

Shit.

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 23:33:40 +0000

I haven’t updated my blog in aagggees, because my laptop was sent away and so I haven’t had alot of time on computers since.

Christmas was awesome, I got loads of really cool things and it was nice to spend time with just my family.

Recent shit happenings.

Today was the shittest day I’ve had in a fair while. A combination of finding out my best friend did stuff with my ex a couple days after she broke up with me, being told that I’m no good to someone, and throwing up all day has really put my mood in the dumps. I never really have a go at anyone if I’m annoyed or whatever, but right now I couldn’t care less if I told someone to fuck off just to get some peace for a few minutes.

New blog/background

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 03:10:00 +0000

New blog for my 3D models and Animations; www.frazhworks.tumblr.com

New background that I made, and new font colour and everything to match that I edited the coding for :3.. I also made the background for my 3D blog.

Messed up

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 03:09:00 +0000

Should I be concerned that whenever anything bad happens, I always think suicide is an option? :\

Stress

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 03:05:03 +0000

I found out what stress was again recently due to college work. I’m not gonna write a huge entry because to be honest, I simply can’t be bothered.

It’s 3am, I’ve just finished cutting and sticking 30 A3 pages worth of work and I’m still unhappy… at least I don’t have to worry about getting into trouble at college for not doing the work.

Adios.

Eatting patterns

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 00:50:00 +0000

:(.. my eating pattern is so screwed up >_<.. *ignores blog entry about the amount of food I eat when my mum goes food shopping*

My normal eating pattern/routine.

Breakfast - 9:30

Lunch - N/A

Tea - 8:00 or N/A

Post-poned Lunch - 10 minutes before I go to bed

Not only do I end up eating more than I would normally in the day, but I eat the majority of it 10 minutes before I go to bed, which is BAADD, because the food settles and doesn’t digest quickly, or something like that. I mean right now, and its 12:50am, I’ve just eaten 3 hot dog buns (total of 8 hot dogs in them), and a mulla corner, which I’m eating right now. (Hypocritical of my bitching about my eating habits WHILE doing it?.. yeah?… I know :().. I need to sort myself out. *sigh*

Bus walker

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 23:52:00 +0000

I started college a few months ago, I get the train from Horsham to Three bridges and then Three bridges to Brighton. The travelling there is perfectly fine, no one weird looking. (much)

However, on the ride back from Brighton to Three bridges, at the same time every single day, is a weird (Russian) looking skinny man, who walks up and down the train, looking at everyone who he walks past and checking all the seats. I’m not sure whether to be worried or not.. for all I know he can be scouting out the train for a terrorist attack, or he could just be lonely :\ (I suppose I should worry for ether one, hah).. anyways, I’m tempted to ask him tomorrow (cause I can garentuee that he’ll be there) what the hell he’s doing. Then again, I don’t even know if he speaks English or not.. but its so fucking weird >_<.

The day the shopping gets done.

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 23:46:00 +0000

Mmmmm, I love it when my mum goes food shopping. I get the satisfaction of coming home to finding £300’s worth of food stocked up in our fridge and ready to eat. It feels good to know that I can now go downstairs, grab a tin of hot dogs, some yellow mustard, perhaps a salami if I want, a few hot dog rolls, a muller corner, a few pints of milk, some sausage rolls.. and still be able to go back for more if I want to.

Life is good when there is plenty full of food to go around.

Fitness update!

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 19:50:00 +0000

I’m just updating on my fitness thing I posted about a week or two ago.

My main form of the exersize is crunches before I go to bed, I do them untill it starts to hurt so much I need to lie still, which is awesome cause it shows its doing something :P.. I can already see some results, and I’ve got some new types of crunches and such that will work different areas.. so YAY for me possibly getting a six pack (lol, it’d be awesome..(((I’d finally not complain about being slightly fat :) )))

I’m also going to go running with andrew for a bit tonight. I ran today for a bit too in town and then cycled home. So I’ve had a pretty healthy day.

On another note.. *thinks about something to say*…..

OH, I’m mightly pissed off with my xbox for losing 600 gamerscore.

Okay, thats it.

OOOHH!.. I REALLY need a fucking job. >_<.

okay.. I’m done. Off to go running.

> _ <

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 18:19:00 +0000

The past week has been sooo up and down. Mainly today though. Its like, something good happens, then something bad, then something good, then the good thing goes bad, then another good thing, which at the same time something goes bad, etc.

+I just wasted today doing fuck all because I’m lazy.

Must. become. active.

Cheese; Sliced, Medium grated, Small grated.

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 00:45:20 +0000

Cheese; Sliced, Medium grated, Small grated?

While making some scrumptious cheese toasties, I came across a great discovery.

Just by using one type of cheese, in my case I used cheddar cheese, you can get several different flavours of cheese from it. OBVIOUSLY they aren’t huge differences in flavour, but there is enough of a difference to be able to tell the difference. So enjoy the instructions that I’ve provided and enjoy it for yourself. If you discover anything new with other cheese, or various ways to slice n’ dice your cheeses, let me know by commenting!

STAR guest Tim Hanson says - I like a strong cheddar, with crackers.

Instructions

Get yourself a block of cheddar cheese. (I haven’t yet tried it with different types of cheese, so if you have the opportunity, test it yourself.) Cut one slice of cheese off of the black, alittle less than 1cm big. Now cut another slice about 4mm (these measurements have to be spot on, of course. ;P). Put those two perfectly cut pieces of cheese to the side. Now grab a grater. If you’ve got a modern grater, or a fancy grater, you should find that you have options of how you would like to grate your cheese (courtesy of the cheese grater makers). Make a small pile of grated cheese using the largest grating option. Once you have that pile, there should be a grater option that is pretty much half the size of the one you just used. Make another small pile with the small option. Now, you’re set to enjoy the vast flavours that one type of cheese can provide.

Tidy room.

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 22:35:14 +0000

I tidied my room, and for those who recently saw my room, you’ll know that its quite an archievement. Though I actually doubt that my room will stay tidy all that long.. it only normally lasts about 2 weeks at the most people the floor starts to dissapear beneath layers of cloths.

But I’ll try.